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Journal Entry: Wed Nov 7, 2012, 5:15 PM
So, I'm not going to be on dA for Idk how long. I feel like God really wants me to purge myself of all things Deviantart/Tumblr Related. There are things in my life that needs to get squared away. For too long I have made DA My GOD and I have quenched Jesus and shrunk him down to a little jesus I put on a shelf. I need to get my priorities right-and to do that-I believe I need to abstain from dA and tumblr.

DA..I love you guys. But like I said, I cannot keep serving two masters. I don't even think Shipping and drawing cute romantic stuff is good for me anymore. Rping is out of the question and no more romanticism here. My life has been a huge mess because of it-and I understand that not everyone needs to go this path, but I must for it is what God has called me into. I need to overcome these things and thus I have cleared out my gallery of anything sexual and sinful.

I have some skype friends and some facebook friends from dA....I'm clearing out my skype/facebook however, so if you dont wanna be deleted, go ahead and say so now. Otherwise, the only thing Im gonna do on the computer now is to draw (not gonna be posting) and be on youtube and google/skype.

Sorry you guys. but I really feel the Lord has put this into me...that I need to stop serving dA and feel like I have to PLEASE everyone. I know that was not your guys's intent, but My mind is imperfect and made things ultra legalistic. X_X OTL sorry.

I won't be posting, I won't even be logged in anymore. I won't be checking messages or doing more asks for the time being. Rather, I'm going to press into the Lord and draw holy things-and not sinful entertaining things.

I'm sorry if I sound weird, maybe even a bit crazy. But if the Lord tells you something, you do it. And who knows? i might be back sooner than later. But the goal is at least ONE month. If I can do at least one month without dA, I think I've got my priorities back in line. ;v;

I am sick and tired of pornographic images clogging my tumblr every time I look at a tag, and for the longest time I've debated about my DFH series and really thought if it was truly something God wants of me...? I don't know. I am sick and tired of seeing overly romantic and sometimes erotic-images in my DA watch list...It downright makes my life and struggle to be pure HARD. I want to abstain from sexual immorality. How can I do it if it's constantly in my face?! :|

Well. There it is. I'm gonna try my hardest to clean up my act, and to overcome these battles I am constantly having in my heart. I will still be in contact with those special few on Skype/msn/facebook. Butttttttt not really gonna be posting anything on here for at least a month.

It's time to do some soul-seeking. and I need a lot of inner healing and direction as of now. Keep me in Your prayers, and please, do the right thing. God bless every single one of you watchers. :') I will miss you guys of course, but I won't miss the temptations and the mixed images while trying to find out my identity in Christ.

Thank you so much! ;v; :heart:
-Alex-
(I might check in within a month or so....but who knows?)

Lord, I ask that you bless each and every one of my watchers, Father. Continue to be a source of light and strength for those that know you, and may you be a blessing for those who do not know you. Lord fill each and everyone of their hearts with your love and let them know above all else, they are loved. They are created in your image and are beautiful/handsome in every way shape and form. Lord you cancel out our debts and forgive us of our sins and Lord you are the love we all so deeply desire. Jesus, I ask that you bless their state/country/province/continent/town...Bless them with provision and anointing and give them strength to overcome many trials this life has. I speak Healing over them in the name of Jesus that they would receive fully what you have called them into, and may your kingdom reign above all else in this world. Thank you Lord for my Watchers, they are a great source of Joy and encouragement for me as well as criticism. Lord, you have blessed me with my talents such as drawing and writing, and Lord I commit to you once again and I lay down my pride for you. I ask that you fill me with your presence and that you would begin to take back what was hidden. Raise me up to be a great warrior for your truth, and May you mature me-even if it is painful at times-into the woman you so desire. I lift up my watchers to you, God. I love them, and you love them. Show them your love, Jesus.
Amen.

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Shikamaru9419 Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks Alex, especially for the prayer. I hope that God speaks to you during this time, and that if it is his will that you could come back here.

God Bless


-Jacob
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starleogirl09 Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012
Best of luck to you as always, Alex!
The Lord will take great care of you :)
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joboar13 Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2012  Student Writer
I hope you find your path and get things sorted out, Alex <3 Do your best! We will always be here waiting for you and we only wish for your well-being! Good luck :heart: ;v;
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mattwilson83 Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I'll miss you til you get back. Hug. I'll try coming on skype a bit more. :hug:
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orange-yoshi Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2012
Good luck with it!
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Picklemind Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
We'll miss you, but this is a really admirable decision. C: Good luck! You're in my prayers :la:
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Magicionary Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012   Digital Artist
I'm praying for you! and I know how you feel... :clap: I know God is smiling on this decision of yours. He loves you! :hug:
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Candyboss98 Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist
I will miss you soooo much! QAQ
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starlight1216 Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012
Same here, it seems. I do hope you will return, but I wish you all the best, and you will be in my prayers. I will miss you dearly and your DFH art. Those always brought a smile to my face. And thank you dearly for the kind wrote prayer you wrote for us. I needed something like that today. :hug:
May God bless you every moment, and may you come to know His endless love for you even more.
God bless, my sister in Christ!
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LadyInteresting Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm going to miss you, so much! But I respect your decision, God bless!
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