I've been going through a real tough spiritual battle since January and It only seems to get worse...I am almost always tense, always crying every day for minutes on end...I have been chronically anxious with nerve-wracking anxiety and fear...and It feels like this battle will never end. But then again, I serve a GREAT GOD and my problems he can handle.
My heart feels like it weighs a thousand tons at any given time...so I drew this out of frustration and it made me feel a little better. Even if it doesn't feel like God is holding my heart, I know he is. I must have faith that he is. Or else I just might give up.
"If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything." -1st John 3:20
And I really like the second sentence, "You were not designed to carry such a burden". It reminds me that there are just some things in life that I should let go of. I worry about so many things, and things feel like they're always breaking. I can't keep up with all of it and I get so overwhelmed with anxiety. I want to change! >.<
Going to church more, and trying to become more involved in the word has helped me a lot. Even if I don't understand everything, even though I don't know what I'm looking for, even though I'm basically stumbling around trying to find a way... It's better. Sorry, I'm kind of a rambler! XD
I know this post is old (at least I'm PRETTY SURE it is??), but I hope you're doing so much better <3
Matthew 11:30 "For my yoke is easy and my burden is light"
I pray that He lighten your burden.
God bless you.
Sometimes, we can be on top of a mountain with legions of defeated demons at our feet. Just finished saving the world, yet lamenting about how useless we are.
That is when the demon is us.
Me against me.
You against you.
No demon can hurt you as bad as you hurt yourself.
We are our own worst enemy.
The ultimate showdown is when we face ourselves.
Defeat the most hideous of creatures, in order to find out how beautiful it actually is.
The great internal conflict is slaying your own skewed view of self.
The battle of the mind.
-Justin Blake Poythress (Nitsuj-Poy)