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I am a Christian. by shock777 I am a Christian. by shock777
I am who I am. I cannot change that. I have been dealing with so much pain, depression, and doubt this whole year. this has been the worst year of my life. The only thing holding me together is God without a doubt. this makes people not like me...this makes people leave me. this makes people judge me, make fun of me. friends come, they go...but I cannot deny my true identity. I am a child of god. I am beautiful. i have purpose. I am not useless!!

this year..my family has fallen apart. my mom and dad are getting a divorce. my suicidal sister turned to drugs and alcohol. the other sister has developed an extreme phobia. my house was robbed, My sister needs an operation...my stepdad has called me useless and fat. my sisters are against me. I have seen demons in the house we live in, one called anger the other fear. I experienced heartbreak and high school drama. I have been through so much....there is even more than that...

The only thing...after all this...that I know at the end of the day. I am clinging to god more so than ever..and it takes a lot of courage for me to post this and to declare who i am..but I am who I am. ...

It has been 15 years of emotional abuse and still...the only strength i can muster is that from God. :love: I am proud to say that too! :love: This year is so hard...I have lost so many friends..my family is so messed up..and I haven't done anything special with my life...but I know...that God has me...in his arms. Always. :heart: even though i may doubt, fail to go to church, cuss, be perverse...he is with me...and That truly is Mercy ;A;..:heart:

I love you lord...so much...don't ever leave my side...ever...
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TheGreyInkwell Featured By Owner 5 days ago
I've had a lot of family problems this year too- my parents are debating divorce and it's so hard for me to be in the room with my dad anymore- my sister is having problems and I'm caught between two friends right now and whichever side I take I'm loosing one. Last summer I went through wondering about my faith and to this day I still have doubts about weather I'm really saved or not. But I found your art around last school year and it was just what I needed. Especially what you post under the art- it was great to know I wasn't the only person who doubts. So your art is really special to me and I am grateful I was allowed to find it. :)
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minnas1 Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Amen!
Preach it sista! God is my strength!
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Metalhead-777 Featured By Owner Edited Mar 13, 2015  Student Digital Artist
So when they cast you down as intolerant filth,
Stand firm, never bow to the lies


"Relentless Intolerance" - Demon Hunter
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FireNationPhoenix Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2014  Professional Traditional Artist
yes, DON'T LET THE LEFT GET YOU!
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mrm64 Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Say it sista!! :love:
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ZeppieDragon555 Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Amen!!! Lol 
Sherlock Smile 
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Automan217 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
AMEN! God bless you, Child of God! :D
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LotusDragonof5000 Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014
YES!
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wolfgirl4565 Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2014
that was really beautiful and just know that you just have to move on in life so just try to focus on the good parts of your life and move forward with it :)
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MrNukedDuck Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Amen to that, sister! :happybounce: 
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NightCrestComics Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
So am I!
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Sinornis Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2013
Jesus, servatis a periculum, servatis a maleficum.

Jesus, save us from danger, save us from evil.
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ripper9492 Featured By Owner May 12, 2013
AMEN!! :iconiloveitplz:
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alcasar-reich Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2013  Student General Artist
per secula seculorum
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keybladeninja1 Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
you tell em girl amen AND HALLELUJAH !!
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SebastiansSire Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow this is powerful stuff here my friend and being a Christian myself I pray that the lord blesses you forward and the lord leads you to many paths. :)
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DarkArmedDragon Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013
Amen!
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kaitobunny88 Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
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Runway01 Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2012  Student Writer
AMEN SISTAH!!!!
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VelocityOfSand Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
God Bless you :D
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tekitomadachi Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Amen Sister on the pic!! :w00t: God is with us no matter what we go through; be it the really rough roller coasters or the peaceful stillness in the nighttime, He will always be there to pick us up when we least expect it. :)
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plumbg Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2012
OMGOSH!!! This is...argh, i never have good words. I love the message. :'D Your other Christian stuff is really touching too. I'm really sorry about all the stuff going on in your life. I am always astounded by God's mercy. We sin, but he forgives. We fall, he picks us up. We hunger, and he provides.

And your chibi is so KAWAII!!!
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Linked-Memories Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2012   Digital Artist
About the last part of your description: He will never leave your side, the only one who can leave is you
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argosaxthechaos Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2012
I dont know what you are trying to prove because all of this is really leaking out vanity.
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ShadowRose17 Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2012
Love this picture. ^^ Wonderful job! Glad to hear even with all you've been through you're standing firm. =3
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FullMetalSoul13 Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2012
Yes! :highfive:
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Picklemind Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow! :D I love the picture, and the testimony is really moving. Hang in there, I'm so glad that you turn to God, even in the midst of suffering ^^
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Jclaymore Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow... *is speechless* Beautiful picture, and a beautiful testimony.
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shock777 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thank u ;v; the testimony is wayyyy more detailed than what I wrote...but it's pretty intense what all has happened. XD this year too has been difficult. lots of things go wrong, but i got into a new church and got more into the lord...and now i am moving to pursue what god has for me! :') God's got me..he has so much favor on my shoulders...he has so much mercy and i just..cant thank him enough
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Jclaymore Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Sounds like the beginning of the journey, I feel like I just started my journey too. Things look like they're about to get interesting in your life, so hang on to Jesus, and enjoy the ride!
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shock777 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
its very difficult but i am and have been on this long ride called life for a while now! its only gonna get tougher but i will be equipped to handle it
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Jclaymore Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
More than that! He equips us to thrive! He is our source and our salvation, so where is the the fear of death or starvation? God is our Comforter, and knows what we need. We know that we can thrive in this wiorld and not merely survive.
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shock777 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
hes my everything. hes given me hope strength love and friendship. he has been a father and a teacher more than my fathers have been to me...he has given me a future and a dream..confidence, beauty...love....its just..tooo much to express
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Jclaymore Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
that is such a beautiful sentiment! I don't know any girls around my area that think like that.
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shock777 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thank u!! ;v; but he has..he calms my rage and he has given me hope. i quite literally almost died several times emotionally and physically and each time he has pulled me out. id be a fool not to notice that gods hands were a part of my life
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Gaaralovesme3 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
): I know how you feel, only I didn't know God at the time. My parents divorced when I was 8 and I had a hard time with it. I'm shy, but it made me learn to keep my feelings shut inside of me and not be able to be ME with other people. I kept away from my family and almost resented both my parents for what they put me through. But then My father and his girlfriend started having us-my younger brother and I- go to church, and when I was 12 I got saved. Ever since my salvation, I have known that God works in mysterious ways, and there was good that came out of all my heartache over the divorce; I got to know God! That is why my life verse it Romans 8:28 "And we know that all things work together for good, to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose." I hope you can find the good in even the hard times you're going through. :')
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shock777 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
amen! what a great testimony! yes that verse is amazing. it's one of those that i always recite :) I'm glad that heartache doesn't last and that God always prevails! He is number one over ALL circumstances! :) :heart: God bless you!
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Gaaralovesme3 Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
(: Yeah, God always prevails!
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bakagohome Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
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RoseOfGod Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Amen to that!
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RoseOfGod Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh my goodness, why didn't I read your artist's comment sooner?

How are you right now, my sister?
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LoveAnime321 Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
YAYYAYAYAYAY XD I finally finished it X3
awhile ago I asked if I could make a base of this, and I wanted to do it so bad the last few days :D:D
[link] hope you like it X3 and if there is anything you would like me to change, please tell me X3
but I do have a question, would you like me to take your singature off the base? or keep it on?
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shock777 Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
ehh...idk just have the rules be for them to send me their finished pieces if they use! :D
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LoveAnime321 Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
hah XD ok, I'll put on to send a link to the original picture, if that is ok XD or should I guess note you whenever someone does sends a link to this? X3
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shock777 Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
uh sure XD;
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LoveAnime321 Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
hhah XD sure, I don't make sense most of the time X3 but what would you like for me to do then?
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shock777 Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
note me :D note me if they do it and send me their post!
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LoveAnime321 Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
ok X3 I will when they come in :D I'm doing mine right now, so you'll see it soon X3
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kirafaclaws22 Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You are a hero:hug:God will never, ever leave your side. Even when you feel utterly alone, you can always turn to Him.
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shock777 Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
definitely! :)
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