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My good friend
drew this for me. I traced the sketch and added color. It's a picture of herself, me, and Jesus.
My grandmother, the closest person to me in this world, is in the process of transitioning from this world into the next. She is my everything. The one who raised me and has provided for me my whole life. She was closer to me than my mother and father were.
Heaven celebrates a new soul coming home, meanwhile the ones left behind will arrive later to the party.
Jesus has helped me so much through this...He has prepared me for her death by giving me dreams about it a week before I got the news. I already knew in my spirit it was coming. Jesus reminded me that he too, knew how I felt and what I was going through. He showed me the time that Lazarus died. Even though Jesus knew he would resurrect Lazarus, he still sobbed and mourned with Lazarus's sister Mary. Grief is a part of life and death. Mourn your losses, for those who mourn are comforted by the Lord.
This is by far the toughest thing I have ever experienced. Though I knew my grandma was going to go home someday, nothing could prepare anyone for this kind of heartache.
But I am not without hope. My Grandma knows where she is going, and is going gracefully. She doesn't have much pain in her body, despite the cancer causing a blockage in her stomach. God has been so merciful to us. He has helped us all each step of the way.
My grandma is 84 years old and has lived a long, healthy life. She has endured many hardships, but has always loved unconditionally and has always given us everything with her abundant generosity. I will miss her so so so so much.
As I go throught this season of grief, I have been crying non-stop for about a week now. As of tonight (1/23/14), She has not yet passed. I still am grieving the loss. I pray that she goes peacefully, and doesn't have to deal with her organs in her body shutting down. This is the hardest thing I have ever dealt with in my life...
So, about this picture.
drew it for me because I had told her about my struggles. This picture means a whole lot to me. Because when we go through seasons of darkness and grief, we are supported by community and by the Lord. I am so grateful to have friends at school and family members as well as great online friends like Sophie to help me get through this time.
If you could keep me in your prayers, that would be so helpful and greatly appreciated. The Lord is doing a work in me, and he will strengthen me when the time comes for my grandma's funeral. My grandma is going to live on in my memory and in my heart. I know God will hold me up with the angels and with his unfailing love.
Thank you all ;_;