Dear Future Husband,
I wonder if God has us so close and yet so far...What if we have actually been in the same room...What if we've been in the same space, and yet because of reasons we don't understand, God turned our heads away...? It's not yet time for us to meet, and I will give glory to God for his timing..It is always good and always perfect. It would FLOOR me if we had been in the same town for months and months, maybe even in the same stores or churches and just...never met eye contact. I've heard stories like that before in books and even from people in real life that I've met. It is always fascinating how big God is and how relationships, even non-romantic ones can form simply because of timing.
Sometimes I even dare to wonder if you have already seen me in town, and that you were either too shy to approach me, or you heard from the Lord that it was not yet time to pursue me. God is so, so big. Who is to say that things like that cannot happen? This is the God who stopped the Sun for Joshua during battle. I think God can do anything, even these kinds of seemingly small things.
And He loves us both deeply...I'm sure he knows what he's doing, keeping us on this timeline that is so perfect.
If you're like me, you probably get very impatient at times...Not just with your wait for me to come along, but also in other areas in your life. Such as healing. I am learning currently to trust that God has all eternity to work with me and to be with me. We only live this life for such a small time, and then off to heaven we go. For me, remembering that God is not held back by time and space, makes seasons of waiting worth while.
I have to make it a discipline to sit back, and look at myself with grace. Though I haven't healed of everything I want healing from, and though some breakthrough's haven't happened yet, The grace of God tells me that it all doesn't need to happen all at once. My healing can come in little spurts for long periods of time, but it also can come instantaneously. Who am I to question God's ways of healing me?
He does have my life to work with, and knowing that I am in his hands brings me great comfort. I can finally give myself some slack, knowing that I don't have to be perfect.
So, even though I feel like you are coming soon, I pray that I do not get impatient. I pray that even if we have been close before, or if we have not, that I will be satisfied with God's decisions and his timing in our lives. He does things all for our good, whether we understand them or agree with them at the time.
But if we have already crossed paths, I feel blessed that God is doing a good work in us both at times like those, if they have happened.
It makes me excited to think about that kind of thing. Patience, though! We must hold onto patience as God of all time holds onto us!
-Your Future Wife
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